Sunday, August 2, 2015

You're so big.

It sure has been a summer to remember.

The summer you became SO big.

At sports camp you had a ball. You ran bases, kicked goals, and shot hoops ... the bases won your heart though.

You took swim lessons while laughing with your instructors. You became brave enough to swim mostly on your own and fearless to jump from great heights.

Dad came home from training and you couldn't have been happier. You missed him deeply. But like always, after running into his arms your world was set right again. Peace filled your heart.

You rode your first water slide! The Arizona sun was hot , burning our feet as we waited in line, but you were fearless. I held my breath as you laughed and cheered riding that inner tube through the darkness. But you did it! Then we did it again, again , and again....

We took an epic road trip. For the first time we traveled with ease, free of baby schedules/diapers/and major meltdowns. A carefree trip to visit family and friends, and spend time just the four of us ( your favorite as you tell me .) You lit up in the Ocean. You probably forget but we spent a lot of time at the beach your first two years, but this time was different. Your eyes sparkled as you sprinted across the sand and your laughter playing with Dad was something I wish I could bottle up and keep forever. You and brother loved the hotel bunk beds, you two played so hard you even SLEPT hard on them.
We went to visit Grandma and Grandpa in Las vegas. We stayed in the old downtown area where the lights mesmerized you. You and brother swam on the rooftop pool, played in a giant treehouse at the container park, and loved seeing your uncles. Our favorite last stop was Flagstaff. As I stopped to photograph the mornig  mountains, you asked me so sweetly if I could take a picture of you in tree pose ( it's your favorite.) We ran through buffalo park and walked around downtown where you ate sorbet and ran barefoot through heritage square.. this reminded me that you ARE my child.

Back in Tucson we spent nearly every morning at the YMCA. I ran and swam while you and brother played, we always went swimming after. Most afternoons were spent with your best neighborhood buddies. On Tuesday evenings us moms would set up a giant slip n slide and let you kids have " water day" until you were too tired to function. You LOVED it.  Right now your belly even has tiny scars to prove the fun you had. We started going on family bike rides in the mornings with Dad, you and brother enjoyed the free ride in the bike trailer. You went to Vacation Bible school with your friends,  the music you learned there is still in the Van's CD player. You boys stayed up super late for fireworks, but seeing you OO and AHH over the colors was well worth the missed sleep. July was so hot and stormy that you suggested we put our bounce house in the playroom instead of backyard, I thought you were crazy but tried it anyway. It fit like a glove and is still in the playroom, you were right.

You brought incredible joy to your Grandparents. You played ball with Grandpa Trumbull in his backyard, laughing uncontrollably. Grandma Fran came to visit and babysat you boys , I'm sure you read stories and had too many tickles before bed. We spent a few days visiting Grandma Mush at her cabin. You rode a horse, rode your first go-cart with your lead foot Grandma, swam below the pine trees, and I watched you cross the monkey bars without help for the FIRST time.

Your Big brother ( by Army not blood ) Coey visited with us on their summer cross country trip. It was surreal seeing you two play so well together,  he's known you since you were 3 weeks old in Alabama. You two had a joint birthday party when you turned 1 and he 3... we were there for his surprise 7th party last week before they left town . You bowled like the big boys and didn't need any help, I realized you ARE one of the big boys.

But THIS week, this last week of summer has sent all confirmation. On Sunday you moved upstairs to the Kinder room at church.  We walked up the stairs holding my hand and you said, " Mom this is the best day EVER" I cried. You started planning your birthday party and have decided on a star wars theme, you don't remember but you were Darth Vader for your first halloween... so it's fitting. You persistently begged Dad to help you ride your bike without training wheels on Wednesday, he worked hard with you all afternoon. By Thursday you did it, you started and rode your bike completely by yourself. Your best buddy brought his bike and you two rode around the park together like the big boys you have quickly grown into . The face you make when you ride your bike shows such confidence and pride, I know that this is just the beginning. That face will be showing up more and more as you learn and become capable of so many great things.

Friday we met your Kindergarten teacher. She is kind and patient, everything we could hope for. You even have friends there already so I know you will feel comfortable. You walked in and found your new seat with your name on it and your new hook for your new star wars backpack. We spent our last night of summer at our brand new neighborhood splash pad with your friends,  followed by a late night at our park. Below the monsoon clouds you kids played rough in the mud and you rode rode rode that training wheel-less bike of yours until the park lights came on.  This morning you woke me up like always, at 6 snuggled into bed in Dad's spot since this morning it was empty. Your big handsome brown doe eyes staring at me  and I could do nothing but squeeze tight to my little boy that becomes my big boy tomorrow.

I think back over the past 5 years and I am overwhelmed with it's beauty. The different states and cities we've crossed, the challenges we have faced, the times that I wanted to give up . We have been fortunate and blessed beyond measure . Dad has worked diligently toward his dream career that provides enough for our family, so that I could spend every single day raising you boys. You have grown into the most beautiful little soul because of those sacrifices... and Dad and I could not possibly be more proud of you.

You're going to grow wings and take flight from here, I know that you are ready for this next step and not just because you tell me everyday. Tonight we will say goodnight to our little boy because tomorrow you go to Kindergarten.

Forever this summer will remain in my heart as the summer you became SO big.







































Wednesday, March 18, 2015

it's time.

It's no surprise to say that a huge hobby of mine is photography. Growing up I went through endless amounts of disposable cameras, developing them as quick as I could drag my Mom to the drugstore. During my summers at Dad's I would take stacks of photos to share with my Florida family, sharing a little insight to my life back in Ohio. You could say that taking and keeping photographs was always one of my "obsessions" as many know is typical for me. One year on a family vacation to Hawaii I remember my siblings spending their saved cash on a kayaking trip, and being teased for purchasing an underwater disposable camera instead. But of course no one complained when we had amazing memories in and out of water captured because of that. Things never really changed besides my standards of REAL images. Disposables stopped cutting it , and I never left home without my point and shoot cameras throughout college. Yes CAMERA'S' because I don't think anyone could keep track of how many I lost, broke, or had "stolen" aka lost without admit.  The moment we had our first mister,  pixilated blury image quality was just not acceptable. Sweet southern santa blessed me with my first real camera in 2010... life changing. < by Santa I mean my amazing husband who has always supported my hobbies, both emotionally and financially> I finally was able to capture the beauty in everyday life as my eyes saw and felt it.

In those 4 years I have slowly moved from basic Nikon on "green Auto" with trendy over-processing to an upgraded Canon body, 5 lenses, speed light, lightroom editing, manual shooting, and ( thanks to a hugely inspirational and talented friend) even shooting off camera flash now. The correct way would have been taking classes, but instead I read books/magazines/online articles and simply practiced with whoever was around to let me.

Something is very cliche about being an Army wife , Mom, and Photographer. Many do it and I know of only a handful that do it really well. My fear has always been falling into the category of the others. It's like buying a guitar without learning to play, and expecting to sell a record. It's embarrassing for everyone involved and leaves clients with poor quality work.

A year ago in a church service in Enterprise Alabama,  God totally began to speak to me about a business name. At the time I wasn't sure what to do with it but I wanted the name Believe Studio with scripture tied in somehow. Our pastor was speaking on making christ evident in all that you do, and it just came to me. I want the part of the B that looks like a 3 to stand out, and the L to look like a number 1. In the midst of the word BELIEVE ( a word that I find to be the most powerful to the human mind, that I had tattooed on me at 18, and continues to change my life today ) I wanted the number 31 to stand out in reference to proverbs 31.  The name studio instead of photography leaves possibilities open to sell other handmade items, or even someday be partially fitness related as well.


Since deciding on a name I have taken VERY slow but semi-steady steps . Last spring I obtained an official business trade name through the city, secured a Facebook page, upgraded my camera, and simply started practicing more. The nerves that I get before a shoot, and the pure joy after a successful one tells me that it is exactly what I need to keep doing.

I am in no way ready to start a full time business or even try too compete with the phenomenal local photographers in Tucson . But it's time to finally let extended friends and family know -HEY! Next time you need a photographer for something small, keep me in mind! - if my schedule is free and I have someone to watch my kids, I would be honored to work with you.

Feel free to check out or LIKE my FB page at

https://www.facebook.com/believe31studio?ref=hl

Or just search Believe studio.

Some pictures I have on there are from older sessions , so if you have been behind my lens and would rather it not be public just let me know! Privacy is important to a lot of people and I totally understand that. Feel free to tag yourself in any shots as well :) spread the love.